what happened to me – I cannot control myself now
crouching on my bed – praying to the ceiling let me be ok now
I don’t have a clue – how I can repress my weakness
and nothing I do – could ever repair my failures – please forgive me
my name is – whatever – don’t take the smile off me
don’t get me wrong – don’t hate me
I’m a son – and father – that’s what makes me who I am
don’t strangle my life – from me again
it’s easy to look back – and blame it on my friends
did I decide to hate myself because I can
it took my happiness – it took my everything
I’m not afraid to say: drinking took myself away
it was on a trip – it was when the panic set it
I could feel the pain – the pressure right under my rib cage
I vowed I would quit – I swore I had to quit now
the beautiful nurse - said it’s not sure if I make it – even if I abstain
my name is – whatever – don’t take the smile of me
don’t get me wrong – don’t hate me
I’m a son – and father – that’s what makes me who I am
don’t strangle my life – from me again
it’s easy to look back – and blame it on my friends
did I decide to hate myself because I can
it took my happiness – it took my everything
I’m not afraid to say: drinking took myself away
it’s easy to look back – and blame it on my friends
did I decide to hate myself – just because I can
it’s easy to look back – and blame it on myself
did everybody hate me ... or was it just inside my head